I always wondered maybe with you things would be different. 

It would be easy.

It would be nice. 

but i was wrong…

It turned out to be harder, you were the one I looked forward to.


It’s more like i run from you.

I don’t want you to see me.

I don’t know how I’d even respond to you and your new girl.

But i’m ok. i rise above. period. no exceptions.  



I’m blank and i’ve been blank…


"Always be a first-rate version of yourself, instead of a second-rate version of somebody else. " ~Judy Garland

"Always be a first-rate version of yourself, instead of a second-rate version of somebody else. " ~Judy Garland


think about it..

"The enemy always fights the hardest when the Lord has something Great in store for you"


i will defy gravity :)

lol laugh :)

lol laugh :)


I’ll have the last LAUGH!

life is to short not too!



this title stands for names…

names of women who have wronged me. 

names of women who i trusted and now cannot look me in the face..

i was happy a year ago. 

i had good friends. 

truly amazing friends, friends i could count on completely.

I lost them because i thought the title was my friend.

lets start with 

d: she was awesome talked to her all the time, believed in her trusted her called her my sister.. she betrayed me backstabbed me and made a fool out of me.

c:  she’s stood by me supported me, but all in all never really wanted to be my friend.

j: the nice one always saying “i love you” but lets be honest, no one loves anyone when they first me each other, she says i’m here for you but i’ve never seen it. 

j: she’s honest but rude and hides it behind her puffy eyes. 

m: she talks but doesn’t walk, it’s sad.

d: the one i hate the most, the trash i want to burn, the worst piece of life i’ve ever seen; i’ve never had so much hate for someone in my life that i have for her, she’s a piece of shit, garbage, nothing positive, i could go on and on about how much i HATE this person. 

n: the follower, the idot, the side fucking kick, the pathetic one..

m: the one that revolves around her bf, her life is all about him not about anyone else, you make me sick.

a: you are the honest one, the one i have the most respect for, the one i wish i could be more like.

a: you make me sick, you make me hate myself, you make me want to leave and never come back, who knows i might.

i can’t express how happy i used to be, but after meeting these 11 bitches, my life changed, not for the best but for the worst. 

i’m in a toxic environment..an environment i want to leave.

but how?



Think about what’s going on internally..now think what’s going on around you.. Think how can i make myself and this world better? Just something to think about…